I am at a point where I have almost given up on my business. I have been given a thin opportunity with an incubator. I haven’t been accepted onto their program but I have been given a document to read, something to complete and then they’ll see if they can assist. What I really need is HELP and to NOT be doing this on my own. However, I am grateful for the possible opportunity.
In the meantime I want to go back to work while I rebuild my business into what it was meant to be in my spare time. I have asked so many people for help. As a person who has constantly been rejected in life from the tender and innocent age of 3 it is incredibly difficult for me to ask for help. I am not vain or conceited. Just petrified of putting myself out there and asking for help. But I have asked for help.
All the spiritual books I have read have said the greatest gift you can give someone is to ask for their help. By being in service to another human being you are fulfilling a divine purpose within yourself. Maybe that’s why I was in recruitment. I received an enormous amount of joy by helping people find a new job, or find a job when they were unemployed. I am now in the asking seat for the first time in 41 years and asking (not paying) for help and not one person will help me.
I have every answer from let me see what I can do, I’ll call you this afternoon, I’ll call you tomorrow, I’m in a meeting I’ll call you back, let me get back to you, send me an email and I’ll have a look for you, I’ll have a look out for you dude, I’ll keep my ears open for you, or just completely ignoring me. These people have no intention whatsoever of doing a thing for me. Why can’t people just say NO?
A chance at starting to live my life again. A chance to be that beautiful butterfly. A chance to flow with the world.